so im trying to go here more but i am not even the same person that i was the last time i uploaded stuff on here.
all this stuff is from 8th grade and its amazing how different everything is.
thats good and bad.... not really more of either one.
however, since i have lost my creativity in everything, i decided ill use my amazing ranting abilities here. i guess. whatever im lame.



ok. so i go to proviso for drivers ed now. until i started, i never realized how drastically different public and private schools are. after school at naz, people either try to get out of the school right away. the people who have to wait for rides stand inside and talk quietly, (most people would refer to this as an indoor voice, but i have a very different perception on what an indoor voice should be) because if you talk loudly, the teachers who are standing around staring at you yell at you, especially if you say something that they deem "inappropriate." i suppose this is understandable, since you are in their school i guess. but their ruling doesn't stop there. don't even try to have a snowball fight or play catch outside. that is a no no. even during school, i never get that sense of energy like i did in grade school, or when i go into proviso. heaven forbid you talk loudly in the halls and not get yelled at by someone. are you cold during the passing period? don't put a hoodie on, in that 4 minutes you could get a detention, since teachers would rather give you one than turn the damn heat on. the school isn't run by the government, and apparently that means they can do whatever they want. our opinions mean nothing to them because as long as their getting their tuition, they don't care. they'd much rather build a ridiculous auditorium and football field than turn the heat on. they' much rather yell at you for showing instances of individuality than make their students happy. i personally think a school where someone might not look "normal" is better than a school where people are miserable. i can't count how many times i have heard the phrase "naz sucks," or "i fuckin hate naz."

i am not saying that everyone likes proviso. in fact, a lot of my friends really dislike proviso. but the minute i walk in there, there is so much energy. after school, i love it. people are everywhere and i see people i know everywhere. i see people wearing adorable boots, whereas at naz, that would be a big no no, looking good is a sin. there are people with different color hair, an there are people that -gasp- aren't white. naz has never heard of either of these things. its extremely diverse, the opposite of naz. being diverse at naz is basically not being blonde and not wearing 400$ designer clothes.

long story short, i cannot wait to get out of naz. aside from the amazing people i've met, these have been the 3 shittiest years of my life. i am absolutely miserable from 7:30 to 3:00, and quite honestly, i'm sick of this private school crap. i'm sick of their rules, im sick of the stuck up rich kids, i'm sick of being required to repress any of the individuality i have left, and honestly, i'm sick of them. i can't stand another year there, even though i know i have to, since my pleads to transfer have been denied. to all the freshman: i'm sorry you have to go there. it will only get worse.



the end.